Recently, I've been up to my neck in personal problems. When I say personal, I mean it in an odd way, in that it's actually me that is the problem, not my life (although doing the same thing day in, day out does get pretty tiresome, and is probably the cause of this). But yes, I've established to myself that I'm fairly odd, and as a few of my close friends know, my moods can change fairly rapidly. Not so much from content to angry, I don't get angry unless I'm really drunk, but more like content to not-talking-to-anyone. This is, as you can imagine, a problem. If someone ticks me off, even slightly, it means I'm prone to going very quiet, and not telling that person what is up. Not healthy, especially when this is what you've been like for several years.

As a result, there are times you take it out on your closest friends. I've done this a couple of times, and although it's been nothing physical (although I have punched the guy in question before, and that only made me feel worse afterwards), it has resulted in either me shouting at him, or us shouting at each other. I'm lucky enough to have a friend like him, as although I knew it had all been forgotten and is all in the past, I proceeded to apologise yesterday, and he said there really was no need to.

I've been an honest person all my life, but from now on im going to be pretty brutal, if anyone does anything to irritate me, I'll say something straight away, see how that works out, and hope that others will do the same for me, now they know that I'm not going to go all weird on them.

I doubt anyone I know will even read this, probably not even anyone at all. I'm doing this more for myself, hence why I'm not just using my Myspace account or something. But to anyone who has been affected from me going into loner mode, I'm sorry.